Sometimes it is hard to "Let It Go"...

So we took the kids to see Frozen today and it was AWESOME....

The story was excellent and the soundtrack blew me away. Such a great movie. I think it has taken the number one spot on my favorites list...

There was one song that really hit me in the heart. "Let It Go". Queen Elsa has a power that she has had to conceal all her life because she didn't want to lose control and hurt someone. Especially her little sister, Anna. On her coronation day, she loses control and her power comes out. It frightens everyone, so she runs away. "Let It Go" is the song she sings when she finally gets away and can let her powers go and use them without fear of hurting anyone. She sings about letting go of her fear and developing the power inside of her. It just hit me right in the feels.

The song has been in and out of my head all day and it touches my heart each time. I have thought about it off an on today and I think it hits home with me because I have a lot of fear in me.

I have a power inside me, a special power, just like all of you do, and it frightens me. I am afraid that I will do it wrong or that others won't understand my power and be afraid or think that I am strange. I have it in me to do something awesome, but I don't know what it is. Or maybe I am too scared to try and figure it out. Or maybe I am scared to find out that I don't have much of a power at all. I have also made a lot of mistakes in my life. Those mistakes are in the past, but they still haunt me today. I think that I secretly hold onto to those things because it gives me an excuse to not embrace and use the power inside me. I heard a quote at a conference once that said, it isn't our darkness that we are afraid of, but our light. Or something like that... I can totally relate to this. It's easier to hold onto our mistakes and shortcomings and try to hide in the shadows of our dark times rather than to let go of those things and step into the light and power that is within us. I sometimes wish that I could have a power like Elsa. Something magical and cool. Something that I could grab onto and use as an outlet for my fears. But I know that it doesn't work that way. I wish that it did...

I am afraid of the power inside me and one day I will get over it. I know I will.

Good night all you AWESOME peeps... Don't be afraid like me... Find your power and use it...